Yesterday, a stranger and I began talking about protein.
He told me : “I can’t take that powder because it triggers my anxiety”, and was quick to apologize with, “sorry, is that too much information?”
I could have said no and brushed it off. But I was intrigued. Intrigued because I know exactly what it’s like to have your anxiety triggered by certain foods.
“No, I get it”, I explained, “I have anxiety too”.
I sensed he was a little relieved.
“It’s so interesting; the relationship that food has with our bodies. It matters more than people think. Especially for people with anxiety. Why doesn’t anyone talk about this more?”
He agreed, and said he knew what I meant.
Our conversation went on. I was comforted to meet someone like me.
Someone whose body is, for lack of a better word, finicky. There are just certain things I can’t eat. It sounds easy but it’s so. hard.
“Cake makes me crazy!”, I told this complete stranger.
“Oh, don’t even get me started on fast food!” he said.
We chuckled in agreement.
I cant eat ‘too many’ carbs. I can’t have ‘too much’ sugar. I can’t eat until I’m 100% full. If I agree to gorge on a night of junky food, I am basically signing my life away for the next 48 hours by agreeing to feel physically and emotionally craptastic for that time.
Sometimes it sucks. Sometimes I want to be… what do they call it… oh! normal.
At the end of the day, I know that I am this way for a reason. I’m here to figure it out, and fix it. The relationship between food and anxiety. The relationship between fitness and anxiety. Lifestyle and anxiety.
This conversation made me realize I’m not alone. And if you’ve ever been through this, you are not alone either.
For anyone out their with anxiety, I would love for you to share your triggers! Especially the ‘abnormal’ ones. Like being 100% full… Hah! I think it’s just taxing on the body, by the way. And that’s why it’s a trigger for me.
Stay strong, and keep fighting for your health!