Yooooo just a quick question: where did June go?
One minute I was living in my way-too-big (and therefore constantly chaotic and messy) home in a state of pre-summer bliss just ready to take on the world. Then I got lost.
I got lost in a sea of all my own stuff – weeding through what I need, what I don’t need and can get rid of, while also still keeping a pile called “stuff I don’t need but can’t get rid of yet”.
This isn’t your average spring cleaning!
If you’re new here or you missed last month’s update, here’s whats up right now: we’re getting rid of almost everything we own to go travelling in a converted work trailer.
You didn’t think it was going to be all harem pants and stars aligning, did you? It’s more like… messy hair and insulation stuck on my sweat pants.
As I have been sharing, getting rid of stuff is the hard part for me. I’m an emotional person who tends to get attached easily. It’s been a journey getting rid of things, but I took it slow and steady in June and I can confidently say: it’s getting easier.
As I focus less on what I’m leaving behind, I start to look forward to the future. There is still a lot to do. We’ve got to finish the trailer and make it livable. We’ve got to move out of our current home and clean every square inch of it (I will never move into a big home again!). I have to keep working on getting rid of my things.
And of course, I still need to work and keep shuttling that money away because no one is paying me to travel for 6 months (that would be nice though – maybe one day!).
I’m getting caught up in all of this work I have to do, and my social life is being completely left behind.
Have you ever gotten into a situation where your schedule gets full, but so does everyone else’s you know at the same time, so it’s near impossible to find a moment that clicks for both of you to get together? That’s me right now. With everyone.
If I’m being honest, I feel so disconnected. I am one of those people who finds human connection an absolute MUST. But I am also an anxious and busy introvert. This is my problem. I want to connect with people, but if it’s too hard, I’ll swim away like a sad fish.
I am a hypocrite like that. It’s okay for me to be a ‘busy anxious introvert’, but if someone else’s schedule is too full to have me in it, I think to myself umm…. excuse me! Hi. OVER HERE!!!!!
I really want to see my friends and family as much as I can before we set off on our journey, but I need to relinquish the control I wish I had over that. I fear we won’t be able to spend quality time together, and the clock is ticking – and I know it’s not like I’ll never see them again – and it’s still hard for me.
If you are having trouble relating to this update…. Ah, I get it. I’ll admit, I am a highly emotional person. It doesn’t always serve me well in every circumstance but it’s what I’ve got to work with.
I have tasks to complete, a tiny dwelling to build, and people I really need to see. This is why June = unfinished business.
I just need to keep reminding myself, I can do this – there is still time. It’s okay, it really is. Just take it all one week, one day, or when necessary, one moment at a time. I know this post sounds a bit melancholy, but despite everything I assure you that my excitement grows each and every day!
I hope you enjoyed another unglamorous pre-adventure update!
Wish me progress in July!