Anxiety Roller Coaster: The Least Fun Ride Ever

When I was 16 years old, I had my first panic attack. Not a feeling of panic, but a full blown, out-of-my-own-reality panic attack. I felt the intense weight of the depersonalization and derealization as the world seemed to slip away from me. I’ve never been the same since. I’ve been struggling with some pretty […]

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August Fitness Update

It’s time for my favorite post of the month, my fitness update! During my Strong to the Finish challenge, I got so used to doing fitness updates, so it is weird to be back to doing them only once a month! I really enjoy writing these posts because it gives me a chance to do […]

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Strong to the Finish Challenge – Week 4

We finally hit the halfway point of the Strong to the Finish challenge! After some slight apprehension, I started counting calories at the end of last week so I could better track my diet. Firstly I have to say, I have mad respect for people who continually count calories or macros as part of their […]

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Strong to the Finish Challenge – Week 1

Hello beautiful humans. I’m here to recap the first week of my transformation challenge! I am almost astonished to say that this week, diet was easy. I enjoy healthy nutritionally dense food, so most of it has been a walk in the park. That being said, I haven’t gone “all out” on the dieting yet. I’m […]

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Diary of the Best Friend of an Alcoholic

It’s so much easier to write about what you know. That’s why this blog isn’t about knitting, or beauty, or scrapbooking. That’s why this blog is about struggle. That’s why this blog is about overcoming. These are the things that I know. Not just in myself, but the people who surround me. Now I understand […]

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Need a little push?

Ever just wake up on the wrong side of the bed? Of course. It happens to all of us. We all have different techniques to turn our day around. Today, I’m sharing one of mine. When I first started my health journey, I was introduced to motivational videos on Youtube and I fell in love […]

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Where are all the Gym Resolutioners?

Hey everyone! So there I am in my room the other night, readying myself for bed, when my boyfriend turns to me and notes that he hasn’t seen the typical influx of “gym resolutioners” this year. This observation struck me. When I thought about it, I realized that he was right; the gym didn’t seem […]

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Advocate for Yourself

Being an anxious person with any kind of actual physical health issue comes with it’s own special set of challenges. It could perhaps mean you are going to engage in circular cause and effect arguments with yourself trying to figure out your symptoms. It could mean googling your symptoms until you convince yourself you are […]

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Check in – December 15/15 

Hello beautiful people It’s the last check-in of the year and I honestly can’t believe it. So much has changed in 2015. I’ve learned more about myself this year than I ever imagined. I chased the goal of becoming a more “muscular” me. I’m proud to say that I am where I am because I […]

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What I Lost to Fitness

When it comes to what I’ve lost to fitness, it’s not so black and white. You see, I’ve lost good things, and I’ve lost bad things. It’s just change. It’s just life. It’s a part of my journey that I want to share with you. This is what I lost to fitness. I lost that “not […]

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